after being religious for so long not having that certainty of an afterlife has made me less suicidal but only because I’m afraid

I just talked to the guy who took advantage of me for the first time in months and didn’t even cry or want to throw up or anything I feel so powerful

Anonymous: do you ever feel suffocated by another persons love for you?


i never feel suffocated enough so i confuse jealousy & violence with love because they make me feel something
i always want to feel like the lights are gonna go out soon & sometimes i think i wanna feel safe but deep down i’d rather know that monsters exist instead of pretending i’m not one of them

he has really nice hair too its very soft and he never has chapped lips. he reminds me of newport reds and kid cudi and how xanax feels and i love him

Drugs will ruin your life and the lives of everyone you love I know you hear it all the time but it’s different once you live it just please believe me it’s not fucking worth it

Look at how stupid and cute he is

I have almost no memory of today every day is meshing together